I feel like busting down some trees tonight. Unfortunately, I'm babysitting -___-

Tweet THAT Bishhh !!!!

Remember when I said I was taking a break from all the "social-networking sites" I'm on ?? Yeah ... that's going pretty fine and all, but I feel like I might just deactivate/delete everything. EXCEPT THIS BLOG. I'm still on FaceBook but it's not really as fun as it was in the beginning. I feel like the internet is taking over my life. Unfortunately, I need the SOB for work and what-not. So yeah, I think I will be deleting my Twitter (once again) & eventually deactivate FB again (possibly). The only thing about FB is that I've found so many family members I haven't seen in a while & it's nice to catch up. Idk ... I'm just tired of "following" and "friending" asshole-ish people. One day, I'll be able to just step away from the internet atmosphere. It's become too much. All this technology rapidly changing ( sometimes for no REAL reason ) is kinda annoying && I'm about to be at my breaking point. Not literally speaking ...

Ten to One .

TEN things I wish I could say to ten different people (but don't say their names)

1. i wish we spent more time with each other. i was afraid to see you in the state that you were in and refused to see you at times. i was selfish and now i cant shrug off the regret. i miss you.

2. its crazy because we've been best friends for the last 3 years and now its like im disappointed in you. only because you started something and didn't finish it. i just want the best for you.

3. funny how ONE situation changes our friendship forever. its not like how it used to be. we barely speak & i doubt i'll even check for you in the next few months (maybe years)

4. secretly i wish i had your talent. the way you string words together has me in awe of you. its funny cuz a few years ago i wasn't even checkin you AT ALL.

5. you're still number one in my book. for now ... (:

6. i wish we were as close as we used to be. it's been years since the last time i was genuinely happy around you. i just want that back. but i blame both of us and our stubbornness.

7. i think i like you. && i think it's only because you seem to be a tortured soul.

8. i hate you. but i thank you. i wouldn't be the person i am now if you hadn't contributed to my tribulations.

9. i hate that after 6 months you still have the ability to give me butterflies. i love you. no longer in love with you though.

10. you're my best friend. even through our arguments i love you 'til death. bah'lee dhat!! <3


NINE things about myself

1. i am beautiful

2. sometimes insecure about ME.

3. multiple personalities. depends on your vibe.

4. music is my life. take it away && i cant breathe.

5. i make wishes at 11:11 and hope they come true

6. i try to better myself ... even when it's not so obvious to you or me

7. poetry is my love, my mistress.

8. i want people to pay attention to me for all the good i've done & will do

9. i live with regrets. don't we all ??


EIGHT ways to win my heart

1. make me laugh & smile

2. play hard to get

3. show me your loyalty. prove to me that i am not wasting my time. and yours.

4. make me feel good.

5. tell me it's okay that i messed up. but show me how & help me from making the same mistake.

6. forgive me.

7. understand me. even when i don't understand myself.

8. love me. whole-heartedly & unconditionally.


SEVEN things that cross my mind a lot

1. Life.

2. Happiness.

3. Love.

4. Music.

5. Poetry.

6. My Ex.

7. Graduation.


SIX random things I wanted to mention

1. "Reset your cocks to my clock cuz it is time" - Queen GodIs

2. check my blog :) SelfReflectionx3.blogspot.com

3. Ms. Solo Dolo

4. get to know me. you might end up liking me & my personality

5. i HATE one word texts/IMs. they make me think i did something wrong.

6. can't wait to get my life started !!


FIVE people who mean so much to me (in no particular order)

1. Mom.

2. Sely.

3. [your name here]

4. Nile.

5. Me.


FOUR things I'm wearing right now

1. My shirt.

2. My boxers.

3. My socks.

4. Love.


THREE songs that I listen to often (at the moment)

1. Kings of Leon - Closer

2. J. Cole - Losing My Balance

3. KiD CuDi - Man On The Moon


TWO things I want to do before I die

1. Perform a poem for audience of literary lovers.

2. [almost)) EVERYTHING !


ONE : CONFESSION

1. I want to become a vegetarian, but chicken tastes oh so good :)

Always thinking ...
I'm going to take over the world some day.
If not the world, then your heart & mind :)

BAND OF HORSES

I'm hearing "The Funeral" by Band of Horses AGAIN; this time on My Life as Liz. She sang it for the talent contest with a friend playing the acoustic guitar. I love this song ohdee :)

Dreams. Night-Terrors

Who knew dreams could be so tormenting. I don't think I even dream anymore. More like night-terrors. This time, I was in school && two kids decided to open fire on all the students during lunch. The kids were standing up on tables && I was sitting at the table in front of them with a few other student. Imagine sitting in front of the two kids who are shooting up your school. After everything was done && over with, I had to ask, "Can we go now?" && they let us go. We left & I went to a coffee shop where people were talking shxt. The owner complained about kids always spreading rumors about stuff they didn't know & I let her know that the school did in fact get shot up. The thing that messed me up the most ... while the shooting was happening everybody was looking out for everybody. In the end, everybody went their separate ways like it never even happened .... WOW. >:-(

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P.S: I was watching Criminal Minds on A&E && at the credits I heard "The Funeral" by Band of Horses. To think, I would've never even recognized the song just a few WEEKS ago.

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