Song of the Day .

I swear I am near tears listening to this song. Just had to post it after watching the Malcolm X movie on BET. Every time I watch it I end up crying when he gets assassinated. Smh. I would've loved to meet & actually have a conversation with him. Unfortunately, life has not permitted me so.

Ten to One .

TEN things I wish I could say to ten different people (but don't say their names)

1. i wish we spent more time with each other. i was afraid to see you in the state that you were in and refused to see you at times. i was selfish and now i cant shrug off the regret. i miss you.

2. its crazy because we've been best friends for the last 3 years and now its like im disappointed in you. only because you started something and didn't finish it. i just want the best for you.

3. funny how ONE situation changes our friendship forever. its not like how it used to be. we barely speak & i doubt i'll even check for you in the next few months (maybe years)

4. secretly i wish i had your talent. the way you string words together has me in awe of you. its funny cuz a few years ago i wasn't even checkin you AT ALL.

5. you're still number one in my book. for now ... (:

6. i wish we were as close as we used to be. it's been years since the last time i was genuinely happy around you. i just want that back. but i blame both of us and our stubbornness.

7. i think i like you. && i think it's only because you seem to be a tortured soul.

8. i hate you. but i thank you. i wouldn't be the person i am now if you hadn't contributed to my tribulations.

9. i hate that after 6 months you still have the ability to give me butterflies. i love you. no longer in love with you though.

10. you're my best friend. even through our arguments i love you 'til death. bah'lee dhat!! <3


NINE things about myself

1. i am beautiful

2. sometimes insecure about ME.

3. multiple personalities. depends on your vibe.

4. music is my life. take it away && i cant breathe.

5. i make wishes at 11:11 and hope they come true

6. i try to better myself ... even when it's not so obvious to you or me

7. poetry is my love, my mistress.

8. i want people to pay attention to me for all the good i've done & will do

9. i live with regrets. don't we all ??


EIGHT ways to win my heart

1. make me laugh & smile

2. play hard to get

3. show me your loyalty. prove to me that i am not wasting my time. and yours.

4. make me feel good.

5. tell me it's okay that i messed up. but show me how & help me from making the same mistake.

6. forgive me.

7. understand me. even when i don't understand myself.

8. love me. whole-heartedly & unconditionally.


SEVEN things that cross my mind a lot

1. Life.

2. Happiness.

3. Love.

4. Music.

5. Poetry.

6. My Ex.

7. Graduation.


SIX random things I wanted to mention

1. "Reset your cocks to my clock cuz it is time" - Queen GodIs

2. check my blog :) SelfReflectionx3.blogspot.com

3. Ms. Solo Dolo

4. get to know me. you might end up liking me & my personality

5. i HATE one word texts/IMs. they make me think i did something wrong.

6. can't wait to get my life started !!


FIVE people who mean so much to me (in no particular order)

1. Mom.

2. Sely.

3. [your name here]

4. Nile.

5. Me.


FOUR things I'm wearing right now

1. My shirt.

2. My boxers.

3. My socks.

4. Love.


THREE songs that I listen to often (at the moment)

1. Kings of Leon - Closer

2. J. Cole - Losing My Balance

3. KiD CuDi - Man On The Moon


TWO things I want to do before I die

1. Perform a poem for audience of literary lovers.

2. [almost)) EVERYTHING !


ONE : CONFESSION

1. I want to become a vegetarian, but chicken tastes oh so good :)

Always thinking ...
I'm going to take over the world some day.
If not the world, then your heart & mind :)

10 January 2010

So I'm sitting here drinking my tea && just thinking. My friend Damone (Moan) texted me and we were talking about poetry. I never knew he began writing since 6-years-old. He has poems in storage. Honestly, I was blown away. I don't know anyone personally who has written THAT many poems y'know. It also made me realize ONCE AGAIN that I am slacking on my pieces. I have tons of ideas but I either start & don't finish OR just don't start at all. I think if anything I'll post a few from last year & earlier on here. Then from there I'm gonna try to post any new piece that I actually complete. Whadayathink??

Speak To My Soul, My Mind, My Heart.

I think I've given up on Hip-Hop. These past few years, more like a decade, have been filled with bubble-gum rap and lyrics full of "bitches, hoes, guns, money, and whips". Smhh. What happened to having a message behind the rhymes? What happened to trying to uplift the listeners?? I don't understand. I truly don't. This dilemma is what has me constantly listening to Rap from the 80s and 90s (early-mid 90s). HOWEVER... as of late, I've come across two young men who I just can't get enough of, musically speaking. They are Wale and J.Cole. I admit to downloading Wale's album instead of buying it, but the album is BANGIN!!! He speaks about real ish && I LOVE IT. J.Cole is my new love. I've listened to 2 of his mixtapes && I must say, he's breath of fresh air. Both of them are. Trust that both Wale and J.Cole stay on repeat on my laptop & my ipod. I love that both of them portray themselves in their music. They don't demean women, but they speaks truths of women. I love their rhymes && lyrical wordplay. They develop stories through their music && trust that I'm enthralled in each and everyone of them. I encourage you to take a listen (:

Poetry :)

Lately I've been on my poetry ish. I've been enjoying watching youtube videos of poets from Brave New Voices, HBO's Def Poetry Jam, Write Side Poets, and other venues. I'm in love with certain poets' words and their minds, which I think is most important and most beautiful in a person. The way these poets lace simple words with metaphors that create images in my mind...I'm just in awe at times. So I'm gonna post pics of some of them that have inspired me to continue writing when I couldn't go on and get free<3

Shihan - "This Type Love"

Jasmine Mans - "His Daughter"

Gemineye - "Poetic Bloodline"

Brook Yung - "Change"

Alexis Marie - "Corner Boys"

Oh inspiration. Wherefore art thou...

*I am sporadically inspired*

Since my last post, I've had many ideas but no full, postable pieces.
Why must inspiration evade me as such??

I Am.

After searching for inspiration for my writings...I've finally found it. In a line by Charles Hamilton from the song "Speak No Louder" he said somethng that inspired me. I've heard this song a billion times, figuratively speaking, but this morning the line struck a chord that's been sitting unmoved for some time.

I Am

I am her; an image of Him. I am "us".

I'm a product of my environment, of them.

I am never a victim.

Stronger than ever. Stronger than yesterday. I am Strength.

I'm a voice.

A body that curves like a coke bottle.

A face that displays an exact replica of the man I call Daddy.

A spirit unbroken. A soul never folding, but also conflicted.

I am a mixture of Earth, Water, and Fire; white and red blood cells.

I am a mind that never resides in a cell.

I am a woman.

I'm a Black "sistah" with the blood of enslaved ancestors running through my veins.

I am a set of eyes that pour heavy rains.

I am who I am; myself.

I...am a poet.

Writing.

Seems like lately I can't write.

Either there's no inspiration or I just can't finish whatever writing I started.

I love to write poetry. I've been doing that since I was young.

Seems like the older I get, the less I write.

I just wish my inspiration was constant.

It feels good to write.

I let everything out; all my ill feelings and emotions.

I just want to get back to writing.