Self-Reflection Part2

Death.

Im not afraid of it ... nor am I thrilled about its existence. But I do however realize that it is a part of life &&. is what I believe to be the only thing guaranteed in each person's life. This may sound weird but I know (( for a fact ] that I wont stay long on this earth. I cant explain it but I feel it. For years now Ive known but about 2 years ago I acknowledged &&. accepted that Ill die young. I dont know exactly when Ill die but I have a feeling of how. I believe that guns will be involved. I dont know for sure if they were warning me but the dreams I was having 2 November's ago really led me to believe that I was going to die by way of a gun. Even before I would fall asleep completely I would feel the butt of a gun either at my lower back or the back of my head. At that point in time I was afraid to fall asleep because I thought I would die in my sleep. From what I understand once you say something, you will it into existence. Ive said before &&. will continue to say that I'm going to die young. Im not afraid &&. Im ready for whatever.

xoxo

Self-Reflection

Ive come to realize that I'm not the same person I used to be. Ive definitely changed &&. Ive grown up. I used to really care about what people would think and say about me ... but now I dont. Ive been labeled ... I mean, who isnt??? Whore.Slut.Fat.Loose.Stupid. Those are some of my labels &&. yuhh know what?? I dont give a fkc. I love my life; even with the drama. Nothing in my past or present is going to keep me from living &&. loving my future. I refuse to let what people say about me keep me from putting a smile on MY face. Ive done some things in my life that Im not proud of but I regret nothing; only because at that moment, in that instant it was what I wanted. I have but ONE life to live &&. Im not going to let it go to waste just because Im afraid of someone else's opinion of the situation or myself.

xoxo

dreams.

honestly...i never knew how much your daily life inflences the dreams you have at night. i just woke up from a dream that included some actions of mine &&. those around me for the past 3 days. im not really going to go into details but let me tell you...it was mind-blowing. alot of statements that were either made by me or someone i was talking to were repeated in the dream. it kinda freaked me out.

*random post*

babies.

woah. really i think this is the new epidemic. babies having babies. its rather hard for me to watch all these young girls having babies. kuhz really all im thinking is "damn, another statistic". straight up. i hate to say it like that but its the truth. from what ive learned over the years teenage mothers have it hard trying to accomplish their goals in life. honestly i cant count on one hand how many girls wound up pregnant during the 08-09 year at my school. not to mention those few who had abortions or miscarriages. smh. it really hurts my heart to see all these young girls having to take on the responsibility of becoming mothers. idk about you but im afraid to be a teenage mom. not bashing those that (are-were-will be) but thats just not my cup of tea. so i can only imagine what girls must be feeling when the test shows a (+) sign. idk but in my opinion girls need to start investing in codoms and birth control pills. don't always rely on the boy your messing with to provide the protection.