Self-Reflection Part2

Death.

Im not afraid of it ... nor am I thrilled about its existence. But I do however realize that it is a part of life &&. is what I believe to be the only thing guaranteed in each person's life. This may sound weird but I know (( for a fact ] that I wont stay long on this earth. I cant explain it but I feel it. For years now Ive known but about 2 years ago I acknowledged &&. accepted that Ill die young. I dont know exactly when Ill die but I have a feeling of how. I believe that guns will be involved. I dont know for sure if they were warning me but the dreams I was having 2 November's ago really led me to believe that I was going to die by way of a gun. Even before I would fall asleep completely I would feel the butt of a gun either at my lower back or the back of my head. At that point in time I was afraid to fall asleep because I thought I would die in my sleep. From what I understand once you say something, you will it into existence. Ive said before &&. will continue to say that I'm going to die young. Im not afraid &&. Im ready for whatever.

xoxo

Self-Reflection

Ive come to realize that I'm not the same person I used to be. Ive definitely changed &&. Ive grown up. I used to really care about what people would think and say about me ... but now I dont. Ive been labeled ... I mean, who isnt??? Whore.Slut.Fat.Loose.Stupid. Those are some of my labels &&. yuhh know what?? I dont give a fkc. I love my life; even with the drama. Nothing in my past or present is going to keep me from living &&. loving my future. I refuse to let what people say about me keep me from putting a smile on MY face. Ive done some things in my life that Im not proud of but I regret nothing; only because at that moment, in that instant it was what I wanted. I have but ONE life to live &&. Im not going to let it go to waste just because Im afraid of someone else's opinion of the situation or myself.

xoxo