Quote of the Day .

We don't know who we are until we see what we can do

- Anonymous 

I feel like busting down some trees tonight. Unfortunately, I'm babysitting -___-

Songs that put a smile on my face :)

• Up, up, and away - Kid Cudi
• Cudderisback - Kid Cudi
• Redemption Song - Bob Marley
• Sunshine - Lupe Fiasco
• Boarding Pass - Wiz Khalifa
• B.A.R. - Wiz Khalifa
• Goodbye - Wiz Khalifa
• Yo Side of the Bed - Trey Songz ( Yuuuuupppp!)
• Shades - Wale
• Losing My Balance - J. Cole

and soooo many more! But those are the main ones :) especially the first 2

Quote of the Day .

I won't let school get in the way of my education.

- Mark Twain

Aaaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!

I am screaming. The work that I spent a long time on today ... DELETED!! FTW

I'm freaked out .

by my cousin JJ's face right now.

Like homie came home with the left side of his face bloody and puffed up. I can't take it. 

Pretty much I have a weak stomach when it comes to shxt like that. 

Plus I'm having flashbacks of HIM fighting. 

He pretty much fcked up dudes eye && I stood there in shock while he got in a car and sped away. 

So yeah... bloody faces, especially the one that's downstairs freaks me the fck out.

Venting .

- I'm behind on my Spanish work && Mom's on my back to get caught up.

- Quite frankly, I'm OVER through with my cousin staying here. 

- Shorty stay with an attitude (So do I) but what's pissing me off now is the fact that she took my gold earrings and my Peace bracelet (the one in the header pic).

- That's not cool to me && I'm super duper pissed.

- Ish ain't what it used to be.

- I just want to crawl into a ball && sleep away the days sometimes.

- Had to reevaluate ever smoking weed again after last night. Sel got uber high & I ended up taking care of her kinda.

- So that's a dub

Song of the Day .

I swear I am near tears listening to this song. Just had to post it after watching the Malcolm X movie on BET. Every time I watch it I end up crying when he gets assassinated. Smh. I would've loved to meet & actually have a conversation with him. Unfortunately, life has not permitted me so.

Quote of the Day .

Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from. 

- via my uncle

Quote of the Day .

Limitations live only in our minds. But if we use our imaginations, our possibilities become limitless. - Jamie Paolinetti

Soooo....

I got to present my anthology n English IV today && one of the poems I read left my teacher red in the face. She said it's because it was graphic blah, blah, blah. As much as I am a dreamers, I'm a realist. I'd much rather not sugarcoat shxt to put it simple. I read a poem that JASMINE MANS performed at BNV 2008. Here's the video. Also the video for another poem that was featured in my anthology is underneath.



Jasmine Mans ^




Alexis Marie ^

Tweet THAT Bishhh !!!!

Remember when I said I was taking a break from all the "social-networking sites" I'm on ?? Yeah ... that's going pretty fine and all, but I feel like I might just deactivate/delete everything. EXCEPT THIS BLOG. I'm still on FaceBook but it's not really as fun as it was in the beginning. I feel like the internet is taking over my life. Unfortunately, I need the SOB for work and what-not. So yeah, I think I will be deleting my Twitter (once again) & eventually deactivate FB again (possibly). The only thing about FB is that I've found so many family members I haven't seen in a while & it's nice to catch up. Idk ... I'm just tired of "following" and "friending" asshole-ish people. One day, I'll be able to just step away from the internet atmosphere. It's become too much. All this technology rapidly changing ( sometimes for no REAL reason ) is kinda annoying && I'm about to be at my breaking point. Not literally speaking ...

Ten to One .

TEN things I wish I could say to ten different people (but don't say their names)

1. i wish we spent more time with each other. i was afraid to see you in the state that you were in and refused to see you at times. i was selfish and now i cant shrug off the regret. i miss you.

2. its crazy because we've been best friends for the last 3 years and now its like im disappointed in you. only because you started something and didn't finish it. i just want the best for you.

3. funny how ONE situation changes our friendship forever. its not like how it used to be. we barely speak & i doubt i'll even check for you in the next few months (maybe years)

4. secretly i wish i had your talent. the way you string words together has me in awe of you. its funny cuz a few years ago i wasn't even checkin you AT ALL.

5. you're still number one in my book. for now ... (:

6. i wish we were as close as we used to be. it's been years since the last time i was genuinely happy around you. i just want that back. but i blame both of us and our stubbornness.

7. i think i like you. && i think it's only because you seem to be a tortured soul.

8. i hate you. but i thank you. i wouldn't be the person i am now if you hadn't contributed to my tribulations.

9. i hate that after 6 months you still have the ability to give me butterflies. i love you. no longer in love with you though.

10. you're my best friend. even through our arguments i love you 'til death. bah'lee dhat!! <3


NINE things about myself

1. i am beautiful

2. sometimes insecure about ME.

3. multiple personalities. depends on your vibe.

4. music is my life. take it away && i cant breathe.

5. i make wishes at 11:11 and hope they come true

6. i try to better myself ... even when it's not so obvious to you or me

7. poetry is my love, my mistress.

8. i want people to pay attention to me for all the good i've done & will do

9. i live with regrets. don't we all ??


EIGHT ways to win my heart

1. make me laugh & smile

2. play hard to get

3. show me your loyalty. prove to me that i am not wasting my time. and yours.

4. make me feel good.

5. tell me it's okay that i messed up. but show me how & help me from making the same mistake.

6. forgive me.

7. understand me. even when i don't understand myself.

8. love me. whole-heartedly & unconditionally.


SEVEN things that cross my mind a lot

1. Life.

2. Happiness.

3. Love.

4. Music.

5. Poetry.

6. My Ex.

7. Graduation.


SIX random things I wanted to mention

1. "Reset your cocks to my clock cuz it is time" - Queen GodIs

2. check my blog :) SelfReflectionx3.blogspot.com

3. Ms. Solo Dolo

4. get to know me. you might end up liking me & my personality

5. i HATE one word texts/IMs. they make me think i did something wrong.

6. can't wait to get my life started !!


FIVE people who mean so much to me (in no particular order)

1. Mom.

2. Sely.

3. [your name here]

4. Nile.

5. Me.


FOUR things I'm wearing right now

1. My shirt.

2. My boxers.

3. My socks.

4. Love.


THREE songs that I listen to often (at the moment)

1. Kings of Leon - Closer

2. J. Cole - Losing My Balance

3. KiD CuDi - Man On The Moon


TWO things I want to do before I die

1. Perform a poem for audience of literary lovers.

2. [almost)) EVERYTHING !


ONE : CONFESSION

1. I want to become a vegetarian, but chicken tastes oh so good :)

Always thinking ...
I'm going to take over the world some day.
If not the world, then your heart & mind :)

BAND OF HORSES

I'm hearing "The Funeral" by Band of Horses AGAIN; this time on My Life as Liz. She sang it for the talent contest with a friend playing the acoustic guitar. I love this song ohdee :)

Dreams. Night-Terrors

Who knew dreams could be so tormenting. I don't think I even dream anymore. More like night-terrors. This time, I was in school && two kids decided to open fire on all the students during lunch. The kids were standing up on tables && I was sitting at the table in front of them with a few other student. Imagine sitting in front of the two kids who are shooting up your school. After everything was done && over with, I had to ask, "Can we go now?" && they let us go. We left & I went to a coffee shop where people were talking shxt. The owner complained about kids always spreading rumors about stuff they didn't know & I let her know that the school did in fact get shot up. The thing that messed me up the most ... while the shooting was happening everybody was looking out for everybody. In the end, everybody went their separate ways like it never even happened .... WOW. >:-(

-___-

P.S: I was watching Criminal Minds on A&E && at the credits I heard "The Funeral" by Band of Horses. To think, I would've never even recognized the song just a few WEEKS ago.

Thoughts for Today.

- I feel like I've been slacking on my "Song of the Day" posts && just regular blogs -___-

- What do you do when the person you like likes your best friend? ;; you suck it up && keep it moving ....

- Surprisingly enough, I have a Valentine this year :) He asked me on Thursday

- How to Make It In America premiers tonight on HBO!!!! I saw it already though ^___^

-"Cudderisback" && "Up, Up, and Away" make me ohdee happy when I hear them

- I'm still planning my trip to NYC next month ... Daddy needs to hurry up though

- Plans for NYC?? Visit CCNY, attend a Wiz Khalifa concert and the Teen Poetry Slam at the Appollo, &&. HAVE FUN !!!!!

- Kinda working towards getting a few new memory cards for my camera (video purposes)

- I love you guys. I really do :) ♥

Thoughts for Today.

- I'm soooo sleepy.

- I've been up since 2am yesterday ( 11 Feb 2010 ) && it's 5:26am ( 12 Feb 2010 )

- ARRRGGGGG!!!!!

- Finally finished my Help Haiti essay for English3. I'm ohdee happy about that, cuz it's been a pain in my ass.

- I'm seriously considering performing my newest poem ( No Story )

- I should probably be getting ready for school but I don't want to. My tummy is out of order thanks to all the coffee I drank to stay up -___-

- Guess who called me yesterday?!? HIM :)

- I know. I know... he's bad for me ( I think ). But what can you do when you're still in love??

- "You're the love of my life. Baby, I need you." - Us3 feat. Brook Yung (fave poet)

So yeahh ... I gotta go now. LOL

- Have a wonderful day whoever's reading this!!!! -

Thoughts for Today .

- today was pretty dope. finally finished a full poem. maybe if i get the courage i'll perform it one day.

- b. yung inspires me ohdee !!! && so does sunni patterson. & Queen GodIs & alexis marie & shihan &&+ the list goes on endlessly

- it's nice when you get to sit back and remember all the things you did in middle-high school &&. be like "i can't believe i did that." that's what i did today with a friend :)

- closer by kings of leon seems like a trippy song for when you're high. i won't be trying that though LOL

- "reset your cocks to my clock because it is time"

- going to back to honolulu just to get that maui wowie ... i used to hate this song

- maybe i should start sleeping at normal times?? idk

No Story.

what is an accomplishment?
webster defines it as "a quality or ability equipping one for society"
and "a special skill or ability acquired by training or practice"
i define it as life.
as surviving. as going through something.

i used to think i had no story.
that i'd accomplished nothing in my life
i believed for so long that i was nothing.
nothing special and that nobody cared.
dreams deterred. crashed and burned.
an angel with unstable wings.
that is who i WAS.

i had to sit back and think about Everything.
i'd forgotten i marched all through Brooklyn when 41 shots were fired.
i was 6.

i'd forgotten that i lived through living with a man who hated me for no reason.
10 years. he tried to break me.

i survived suicide attempts.
i survived being bullied. being called fat and ugly.
i got through my eating disorder.
i got through my parent's fighting.
through their divorce.
through feeling like i'd been abandoned.

i got through.

i survived being molested by a man with no morals. no soul.
i remember the day i told my mother.
i can still see the look on her face.
and the fire in her eyes.
i promised myself that day that i would never cause her that pain again.

i survived.

i used to hate everything about myself.
the way my face looked. the way my hair looked.
the way my body was shaped.
all that!

but i have learned to love whole-heartedly.
to stand on my own two feet.
to not let anyone tear me down.
because i know im great.
i've always been great and will always be great.

i used to think i had no story.
that i'd accomplished nothing in my life.
dreams deterred. crashed and burned.
an angel with unstable wings.
that is who i WAS.

who am i now?
i am her; an image of Him.
i am "us"
im a product of my environment, of them.

i am never a victim.
stronger than ever.
stronger than yesterday.
i am strength.

i'm a voice.
i speak for the voiceless.
i am a body that curves like the waves of a coke bottle.
a face that displays an exact replica of the man i call Daddy.

a spirit unbroken.
a mind never folding, but almost always conflicted.
i am a mixture of Earth, Water, and Fire;
red and white blood cells.

i am a woman.
a "sistah" with the blood of ancestors running throught my veins.
i am a set of eyes that pour heavy rains
whether i'm happy, sad, or laughing.

i am who i am, who i want to be.
myself. and that's not even the half.

i am where i am today because i PUSHED.
i clawed my way through my problems.
scratched and pounded on that damn glass ceiling
'til it fkcing broke!

and i am happy.

i used to think i had no story.
that i'd accomplished nothing in my life.
i know now that i was wrong.

my name is Dominique Ashley David
and this is part of my story.
what's yours?

Photographs.

Thoughts of the Day .

This was from 3 Feb but I forgot to put it up

Song of the Day .

Well more like Artist of the Day.

"better get ya'self some goals/you niggas better dream/i know the hood raised you/but there's bigger and better things/&& for those that passed i need a moment of silence (shhh)/&&. don't be losing your balance."

"All the times my brother told me that pussy is blindin’/I’m findin’ The more I grow, the more y’all seem to stay the same/Don’t even know the rules but yet y’all tryin’ to play the game/And ain’t it shameful how niggas blame hoes for givin’ birth To a baby that took two to make/Coward nigga, you a fake/How you gon look in your son’s face and turn your back?/Then go start another family dog, what type of shit is that?"

Thoughts of the Day .

- my horoscope was right today LMFAO Silly Female

- four dope artists on repeat: KID CUDI, LUPE FIASCO, WALE, WIZ KHALIFA

- lol i didn't put them in alphabetical order on purpose :)

- i'm actually listening to the entire Donate to Download album. it's pretty nice.

- cursing at me at 6 in the morning gets you nowhere -___-

- i have to finish 2 essays by monday o__O

- promised my friend that i wouldn't say FML anymore. i'm doing great so far.

Priorities .

I've decided that I'm going to take a HIATUS from all the social networking sites that I'm on. Well, more like a vacation. Reason being, I need to focus more on my school work, especially since my class load just nearly doubled. The only thing that I think will be continuous with me is this blog. Other than that, I'm officially on break.